21.04.2011

Flashbulb memory. It is a theory that we can remember events very clearly due to how emotionally charged they were. Think 9/11, the death of Princess Diana or Michael Jackson. I think we all know what we were doing, where we were and such. It is a striking clear memory, right? Today I was invited to my friend's memorial. On the 25th of April, it was six years ago since he committed suicide. I have a flashbulb memory of the night I found out that he was dead, that he would never come back. It was one of my friends whom told me, his personal message on msn was "RIP *name*" and I asked him if he was kidding. 24 hour had passed from the last time I spoke to him until I found out that he was no longer alive. I cried and I screamed. And I screamed for hours. That was the worst summer of my entire life. On the 25th of April, I will have class for 8 hours and on my way home I will be passing by the graveyard. It is not where he is buried but it is close enough, it is something that can keep him here even though he will never come back. Six years - you are not supposed to want to end your life at 13.