2.12.2010

Today has been such a useless today. It is like my life has lost its meaning, I cannot seem to find any amusement in living. So I am trying my best to find little things that makes me happy for each and every day. Today I got called in to the centre for young girls, as one of the volunteers got sick. It will be my first time and I am really excited! That will most definitely make my day. Tomorrow we are going to the theatre, then there is a show in school and I am spending my evening with a guy I like. See? Small thing to take me through each and every day. Hopefully it will work out for me because I really cannot just surrender right now. There are so many things I need to do and even though I am totally lacking motivation, I am trying. But it is hard to do something when you cannot see the purpose. It is as if everything has lost its purpose and I am just trying to figure it out.