25.10.2010

I find it incredibly scary to think about the future. Being as well-planned as I am, makes it difficult though. I love planning but only to a certain extent, as beyond that it just gets scary. Like thinking about what I wanna do after I finish the IB. My initial plan is just to finish it. To actually make it out alive and with some good grades. Right now, christmas is even too far ahead to plan. Whether or not to buy a christmas gift to him, I mean, God knows where we will be by then. Hopefully where I want us to be but at the same time I do not want to risk it or "jinx it". So I am just going to let it be until the weekend before christmas because then I have to know whether or not to give him something. Right?