30.05.2011

Today I went to turn in my VISA application for my trip to China this summer. It did not go as planned and my mood quickly turned sour! To begin with I got off the bus way to early, so I had to wait for the next one (stupid SL) and then I passed the embassy I was heading to but problem was that the bus kept going for a really long time after that. I had to walk back to the embassy, just to be informed that their VISA Application Service Centre was moved to a different location. By now I was truly pissed but I decided to keep on going until I would be able to turn in my VISA application. I got on a bus, I walked a couple of hundred meters and then I found the building. It was HUGE and it seemed impossible to find the right way but once I did, it all went smoothly. My mood did not really recover though, I am still somewhat moody.

25.05.2011

I cannot believe that I am finished with my finals exams. No more internal assessments, no more exams and no more pressure. Our graduation lunch was held yesterday and it was lovely but I still could not wrap my head around the fact that I am done now. It is a scary feeling. What is even more scary is the fact that I got chosen to be the valedictorian for the graduating class of 2011! I am truly proud and my speech is almost finished but it is still somewhat scary. It is supposed to be held tomorrow at our Award Ceremony and afterward we (my family and I) will celebrate by going out to dinner. After dinner me and my sister will go out to take a drink too, because this is truly worth celebrating!

18.05.2011

Nine of my exams are now over with and I only have two left. Awesome, right? Would be, if I had not become sick with a fever and a bad cold. So now I have to study whilst I just want to go back to bed and sleep all day. So yes, I feel like shit. But it is only wednesday, so hopefully I will get better before my exams on monday. Tonight it's my aunt's birthday, so I'm going to rest a lot and study (of course) so that I feel well enough to celebrate her tonight.

3.05.2011

My first two final exams are today. I am scared but excited! I have been listening to "The best" with Tina Turner for almost an hour to get myself psyched enough even though it is snowing outside. It feels truly terrifying that the end begins today, but at the same time I feel ready. I feel ready to kick some IB-ass! It is a really weird feeling. My sister told me to write everything I felt down before the exam but I do not really know what I feel, it is a mixture of being afraid and being truly happy and excited. Basically, I am nervous. Wish me luck!

29.04.2011

What do you not do to avoid to study? I have cleaned my entire room (it is a big room), vacuumed it and dusted it. I am also thinking about putting in some flowers as my mother thought that it would be good if I "feng shui:ed" my room before finals. I have spent my morning avoiding to study by cleaning every inch of my room, that is how desperate I am. I am also avoiding to take a shower so that I do not have to get ready and will not have a reason not to study. I have a meeting with my CAS-advisor at 3 o'clock and I will get down with studying after that. I hope.

28.04.2011

I cannot do this. I cannot manage. I cannot breathe. I do not want to do this. I do not want to fail. I do not know what to do. I am still hurt after what you did to me but I still miss you but as soon as I do, I think of what you did and I am just hurt again. I am so stressed that I cannot seem to manage to study, at all. I am freaking out. How have people managed to score a IB-diploma before me? I am about to faint.

26.04.2011

I woke up this morning and could not decide whether or not to get out of bed. I got up this morning and could not decide what I would do with my day. I have been up for about 40 minutes and I am already starting to panic due to the lack of structure of my day. I know I have to study and I know that I will but I do not have a plan! It is such a beautiful day and I do not have school anymore, so it is difficult to manage to just stay in. However, I have found a new graduation dress (white with big purple flowers) and I have also ordered a piece of clothing from H&M's Fashion Against AIDS - which I do every year. I believe it is the best collection they have ever come up with.